Struggle

I’m back!

Sorry to neglect this blog for some time. It was Chinese New Year, i was busy visiting with friends and relatives, and also thinking very hard what i want in life.

So i started my new job for a month, and i dont like it. SIGH. WHY. Probably cos i think i am not up to the job, or i don’t like the boss, or the culture of them messaging about work via whatsapp. To me, i dislike discussing about work during lunch and after work. These are my personal time and i get very turned off when it happens. It only shows me how pushy the bosses can be cos they don’t value your personal time. But at least my ex company doesnt have this culture. Probably cos we all dislike that so we don’t practise. Ohh how i miss the old workplace, the ex colleagues and fun times we had. But no, i’m not gonna head back there.

Then, i started thinking of doing my own business. But what can i do? I have no skills. I explored dog groomer, makeup artist, wedding planner. Dog groomer, i’m scared of being bitten by the dogs or get injured, or even hurting the dogs accidentally. Makeup artist, is it a stable career, with stable income? I still need to spend money to go for professional course, but i won’t regret going cos that’s where my interest lies. Wedding planner is something that i had wanted to do since eons ago, when i was still naive and young. Thinking that it would be so fulfilling to help a couple plan their wedding and see them happily married at the end of the day. But hmm, that’s not my interest haha.

So how? I don’t know what to do. Should i continue to be in HR? Sigh…. So vexed! So confused! To make it worse, i’m planning for wedding and my house will be ready last next year, it’s adding on to my stress. :(:(

Boyfriend has been supportive, told me to find a new job if i really dislike my current. He already told me something was wrong when i accepted the offer. He also wanted to change job, but he couldn’t do so as i was still unstable in this new place. Really don’t want to burden him down. He also encouraged me to go for the makeup course cos that’s my interest and i can earn some income from it in future.

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On a side note, been slacking so much on my pole practise. Did brass monkey with spotters’ help. I don’t think i can ever do it by myself haha. That fear of falling is real!

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Wedding Preparation – Part 1

So bf and I decided that we should get started with finding a master to calculate our wedding date since the proposal in Oct. I know. We are very slow and had been slacking. So we finally emailed one of the more popular master, but he could only meet us in March! Gosh. Can i still find my desired hotel venue if i only confirm the date in March? I highly doubt so, given that most singaporeans are very kia-su (don’t wanna lose out) and will book their venue at least a year in advance. I don’t wish to settle for an open-date package with the hotel too, just in case the date i want turns out to be unavailable for us.

Now, we’ve got to try our luck and see if master will give us the dates first while we search for venue, and meet in Mar to discuss the details. Otherwise, we would have to find another master already. Sigh. Why didnt we approach him earlier? Such mess into the start of the preparation and is already turning me off. 😦

I’m also starting to browse and research the bridal studios and wedding banquet venue. So much to research!! Headache.

I hope i will be a happy bride! On a side note, i’m starting work soon next week, after a 3 months long break! Felt so fortunate that i was given this break, when i was offered the job in Oct-Nov. YAY!

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Updates on my life and Pole practise

It has been almost two weeks since i left my job. The feeling was…mixed, i guess? Not that i’m hating it, just feeling insecure that i’ve yet to find a job that i like. I’ve been receiving calls for interviews these past weeks, some were good, some were ugh, lets just not talk about those. There are some companies which i would really love to be able to join them! But, knowing myself, i will fail at the interview, even though i’m a HR myself. I just can’t seem to sell myself well during interviews, it’s just…. not me.

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Tada! They call this pose ‘angel’. Does it fit me? LOL This trick doesn’t hurt, but damn, what happens after this is omg freaking pain! I still have yet to master the other trick, hence will not be posting it. Shall practise more tomorrow then!